boring

After a week in hospital, I was getting bored. Bored as hell. All I see is what I saw yesterday and the day before. Sometimes the 'victims' change but everything else is the same. No entertainment, no nothing, only the window serves as a point of interest.

There was this patient. An old guy with tatooes on parts of his body. Man he looks like a hitman. I felt a little uncomfortable with him in the bed in front of me. He is the person someone carries around when they want their money back. Even a staff or two gave him a slightly different service than usual. It may be skin deep as this talkative guy on the bed to my left talks to him and he seems ok. But I never saw him smile. Never. A man of few words, like Clint Eastwood but without the appeal. Maybe there was a magnum in his drawer. Then I noticed his head was missing some skull ie soft tissue only. After his surgery he gets a new skull, metal maybe, a new round head. He had a lot of bleeding in the left nostril. Some rough treatment maybe. A day or two later he was gone. Man he scared me.

I then moved beds. Then another guy got admitted in the bed in front of me. This guy seems friendly but the bastard liked to smoke. In the ward! Only thinking of himself. One night there was no wind, only the ceiling fan. Initially the smoke went out the window but when in started to come back in I couldn't stand it, I couldn't breath. I can't stand second hand smoke. I told him enough. Luckily he stopped otherwise I would've had to threaten him. He was admitted with fainting spells and needed an MRI scan but the nurses said that it may take a month or two as the machine was well overbooked. It is the only public hospital MRI scanner in the state! His question was whether he had to stay for that amount of time. For a fidgity bugger like him who cannot stay put, this would be hell. Another patient mentioned that a private hospital offered MRI scans at RM300. This was an option. He took it. He went out and got scanned a day or two later but was charged RM1K. This was how much I paid at another place. Knew it was too cheap. I found out later that he had growth up there in the brain. The doctors offered to operate 4 days from now, a tuesday. But he didn't want it. He wanted to go home against doctors wishes. After getting angry he was allowed to go but without any medication. He was on steroids and anti gastric (histac) medication. Something I was on. So he left, the self centered bugger. I wonder what happened to him.

Today I had to see the ENT again. But since I saw him last week did I need to see him today? Last week I asked the ENT staff whether they need to see me today, they said we'll check. So today I ask this guy that guy, they all say I will get back. They never did. The nurse then came to take me to the ENT, the staff nurse complained that I should have informed them earlier because the apointment time had passed. ??? I was still leaking CSF that day. The funny thing was that when I went into his office, it stopped. The ENT doc scoped and said it stopped. But when I left, it started to leak again. Unpredictable this thing. I remember staying on my back a few days to stop the leak which it did but every morning when I brushed my teeth it leaked, this was when it was the most likely time for leakage. After 2 off days it leaked again. Then the doctors said, huh, because the ENT doc wrote no CSF leak on the diary. What to do, it had a mind of its own. I'm just another sim to a higher being.

On one of the days I noticed this guy get carted in from surgery. He had some spilled blood near his throat and had his head wrapped up like a mummy. An accident victim I thought. At the end of the day this guy comes in with the buffet cart ie a corpses cart. I turned to see the bed where the accident victim went was closed. I knew he didn't make it and so did another guy. He didn't last long. Such a fragile thing life, so easily taken away. So unapreciated when we have it.

After a week I was really bored. The food was repeats of repeats. I had to force feed myself to eat it. I started to try my hand at soduku out of boredom. After a few hours I finished it. Success. While I was doing soduku CSF dripped from my nose to the newspaper below me. I didn't care anymore, I had already told the doctors I was leaking anyway so it wouldn't make any difference. It just kept dripping like a slow leaky fawecet. A few days later I finished my second soduku puzzle. I wonder how they put the puzzle together because there is a solution to it but its time consuming (for me) and almost a single path. I think I can write a perl script to solve it. Along the way this guy pestered me, he said throw this number here, there. I said no, it has to be unique, after a while he understood the complexity.

His father was diagonally to my left. He always winges about the pain. The annoying thing was that when he said it hurts I felt my IV hurt. It was annoying. After a while I didn't notice anymore and he went to sleep. Later the nurse came for his shots and he said it hurts, etc. Then he slept. I asked his son what happened. He said a motobike accident (I think), he bumped his head. He said the doctors wasn't too quick on the diagnosis. I said if it was complicated, the solution may take a while. What I didn't know was that he wasn't even scanned yet. He said maybe today, maybe. Sometimes they have to change his diapers. Man it smells. Imagine doing that for a living, poor staff. He was in and out of sleep state for a while until one day he didn't respond to the morning blood pressure test. The trainee called the staff nurse. She slapped him around for a while (only joking) but also no response. She then checked his iris for autonamous response also nothing. Then she looked concerned and called the doctor. The nurse called for a heart monitor. The doctor started to poke needles and doing stuff, and closed the curtains. Then they moved him closer to the nurses desk. The next time I passed him he was on a breathing aperatus and IV everywhere, neck, thighs, etc. This is bad. When his relatives come in they were crying, one fainted. His curtains were drawn. Then I knew. He was conscious, went into a coma, then the end. A fate that could have happened to me if I didn't fortunately got scanned. Dr Muin mentioned this as what would happen if I did not get my tumor removed. I was disapointed that the sole MRI machine (for the state) was so overworked that this guy died before they could see what could have saved his life. Couldn't a CT scan helped? Such that one has to wait months to get scanned, those that can afford it had no choice but to do it privately.

After 2 weeks I was bored and frustrated. I was so BORED with the food. I wanted to take the tray and throw it at the window, and kick the tray holder. But then I would've gotten an injection and sent to the funny farm. I couldn't eat anymore but I forced myself to swallow the 'lauk'.

One day, after getting a drip I asked the medical assistant to remove the drip. He removed it, then looked around for the stopper (to plug the end of the IV), I pointed to one on the shelf behind me. After a while I wondered whether this was mine. I tried to ask around for the MA that put the drip whether he placed the stopper where I found it. I was a little worried, as it could belong to someone else , one with a contagious disease, hepatitas, whatever. I walked to check which hand the guy I shared the shelf with, the guy behind me, had the IV on the left or the right hand. It was the left, it could be his! His bed tag didn't have any contagious notes on it. But I still was not comfortable. Eventually after raising some concerns and getting more attention than I wanted, I found the MA that put the drip. I ask him where he placed the stopper. He said he couldn't remember. Then another MA said change it, I agreed, change it. So he changed it. That eased my mind but hope I didn't get anything. Up to god I guess.

After 2 weeks of hospital food and boredom I could not take it anymore. I was going insane. We all know how cows go mad (mad cows desease). It's the food (literally).

On the 15th day the medical assistant came and took the morning blood pressure. 75/48. This was LOW, very low, very very low. The medical assistant took several readings just to make sure. He said he'll try it 2 hours later to see if it improves. I said ok ,let me go for a walk. Of course this would give false readings. 1 and a half hour later he came back. Liar. I didn't get a chance to 'improve' the readings. Yep the readings are the same. "Doctor". The doctor came and looked at the readings. I asked what are you going to do? She said fix it. Injections was what was going through my mind but I didn't ask. She asks whether I have been eating, I said no, I couldn't not stand the food anymore. She said "eat lah". I thought to myself, I better eat before they start giving me injections.