black boy

Yes the radiation has now burnt my skin, it is black. You can clearly see the edges like someone spray painted a fake beard. Unfortunately that was not the only problem. Half my tongue is white! The radiation burnt my tongue and left cheek. My cheek feels tight, no elasticity, my teeth aches and I can't taste anything.

I can imagine a succulent KFC drumstick but I know I cannot smell it or even taste it (and there's nothing but cooking shows on tv).

I mention to the nurse that my skin was starting to itch and she gave me a tube of paraffin. I hate paraffin, it was like putting vesaline on your face. Sorbalene is better, It gets absorbed and does not feel oily.

I tell the oncologist about my tongue, he looked at it and say 'yeah how about that'. I should ask if he could've made a love heart shape, it would look more impressive. I planned to say the 'thrush" word but it never came out. I wonder why. So no mouth wash for me.

I see the dietitian and tell her about my tongue and the lack of taste. She say well you have to eat and keep your weight. Use a bicarb mouth wash, 1 teaspoon bicard into a cup and wash every 3 hours. You also lost weight. I suggest you increase your supplements. If you don't eat I will suggest a food pipe. ??? Huh, where? Either through the nose or punched through your stomach. I was shocked. That woke me up. No way I was gonna let that happen. I tell her yeah I will endeavour to eat more. I mention that I had stopped the steroids, what can I do, it was the only thing making me eat. I have no taste, I don't feel like eating, even when my stomach says it is hungry. She says that some patient was put on steroids to maintain their weight.

I knew the only thing that was gonna prevent me from the stomach tube was the steroids. So what the hell, I had some leftovers. I started popping them into my mouth again. I new it tasted really bitter but since I cannot taste anything I could rub it on my tongue and not feel anything.